sisters' loves

well, just a random post. Recently i've found out that, actually the relationshis between me and my two sisters are considered so-so only. i juts feel that i'm just closed to them and not super closed to them . To the extend that i din even know like where they going and stuff when they went out from the house. Sometimes, i find that being a elder sister has a stressful resposiblity too. like taking care of my sisters and even setting good examples for them to see. Reflecting back, i have asked myself , wad have i done so far ? i was in doubt. instead i din put in so much love toward my sisters like simple things like teaching my younger sister how to do homework and stuffs. it has been hanging there for very long as i always have the excuse of being busy with school and dance ; neglecting my sisters. Even my 2nd sis, i dunt even know like how is her school work like; is she coping well or not. sometimes, its hard for me to express the feeling. its just feels weird when suddenly i cared for them so much huhs ? i think i'm always being a sister who always ask them to like watch tv, chase after the drama series and not encouraging and not asking them to study.

AIIYAH ` shit. i seriously duno wad i'm saying already.well. the main thing is . i wanna make a change. i wanna to make them feel love in me!!!! THE LOVE COMING FROM THEIR ELDER SISTER! i will try to come home early to acc them. ask them how's school or maybe even teach them when they need help ; provided i know la. hahas. for dance, sometime i have put in too much time in it and has come home late. so by the time i reached home they all were slping already. hais. so nw i'll try to come home early to acc them . be it is watching tv or just plain talking..

why i've decided to do this? cos i overheard from my lil sister that no one celebrated her birthday except my mum and dad. after hearing about this i feel very upset and disappointed in myself. i din even bought her a present where i wanted to. but till now i have yet to do so. i'm sure a failure. well, in her heart, i think she is very upset too.. cos is like my 2nd sis also not at hm. so from now on. i promise to celebrate everyone's in my family birthday with them!! =]]]] i will do it. =)

well, i suspose to post the picts that i went to malaysia. sorry guys. cos i'm still busy at the moment. i will post it later.

ciaos.